A girl visits her boyfriend’s Facebook profile page to find that his relationship status is set as “single”
Girlfriend: Your Facebook relationship status says “single” =(
Boyfriend: I have family on Facebook. It wouldn’t be smart to put it as “in a relationship”
Girlfriend: Oh that’s not what I meant. I have family on Facebook too... Mine’s set as blank. Not “single”. Please do that too...
Boyfriend: Okay I will
Girlfriend: ^_^ Thank You
She logs on a few days after that to find that nothing has changed.
[Thinks: Well he doesn’t log on so often, maybe he hasn’t had the time]
She logs on again in a week to find that it is still the same, but he has updated his status and posted some messages on some of his friends’ walls. She starts to get a little worried but refuses to let her faith in him fall, even just a bit.
[Thinks: Maybe he just forgot...]
She sees him at school and asks him about it. He says that he hasn’t gotten around to it, but he will the next time he logs on. She smiles.
A few days later, it’s still the same. A week passes and nothing changes, even though he’s logged on again. A few more days pass and it’s the same story. She stay patient and faithful and doesn’t bother him about it anymore. A week or more later, she logged on to find that his relationship status was completely removed from the sidebar of his profile and her hopes lift up, but then she goes to the info tab and finds that his relationship status is there and it still say’s “single”. She gives up and moves on.
[Thinks: He probably doesn’t know how to make it blank]
She doesn’t mind. After all, he said he has family on Facebook. It’s safer this way.
She decides that since his family is on Facebook, it would be safer to inbox him instead of posting on his wall, but soon finds that a whole bunch of other girls don’t seem to have a problem posting on his wall. Most posts seem very flirty. And his replies look very flirty too. Those are his homies. That’s what he said. She trusts him and doesn’t doubt what he says one bit. She refuses to get insecure.
He’s always commenting on her pictures of their classmates and rugby games. He has never commented on a single photo of her. She figures it’s just to stay safe. His family is on Facebook after all.
He commented on his chick-homie’s picture. Of her. Looking really phly. The comment was very complimentary and very flirty. The girl felt very hurt and a tear rolled down her face. She wiped it away fast. He is different on Facebook. She has learned not to take his Facebook persona seriously.
His statuses become more vulgar and more wall posts from his chick-homies keep coming. So she decides that it must be safe for her to do the same thing. He always replies all these wall posts after all. She posts... and posts... and posts... but he never replies. But all the posts in between her’s get replies. She feels hurt. But keeps it to herself. He probably doesn’t notice... Maybe he’s just scared cuz they are all just his friends but she’s actually his girlfriend and he doesn’t want either of them to get in trouble. He knows she tolerates his Facebook persona because it’s not really him. So he becomes comfortable enough to make jokes with their mutual friends that she can see as though she’s not his girl. He doesn’t treat her like his girl. Only in the inbox. She wonders why... She begins to worry again. But she will not question his loyalty.
He’s ignoring all her wall posts. He’s ignoring all her pictures. Yet he seems to flirtily reply to all his other friends. And compliment all their pictures.
[Thinks: I thought he said his family is on Facebook!!! =’( *sigh* Oh well... I still trust him. Screw Facebook]
She refuses to let her faith in him falter... but she knows she’s hurt. She feels that sharp stab in her heart every time he sees him flirt. And every time he ignores her. And every time he compliments somebody else. It’s only his Facebook persona. It’s not really him. She keeps telling herself that. Outside of Facebook, he always treats her right. Everyone knows she’s his girl. So why so different on Facebook?
This pattern continues and she continues t tolerate it. They broke up eventually, but only because he had to move away and he believes that long distance relationships are just complications. They still act like they’re a couple though. And they spend a whole day together before the girl leaves for the Christmas holidays. She leaves to her home country for vacation, and he still hasn’t moved away. She promised herself not to let him go and move on to anybody else till he tells her "I don't want you anymore. That hasn't happened yet so she's still holding on.
She misses him very much. The Facebook persona still lives and flirts and jokes and unintentionally hurts. From so far away, the pain feels sharper, and longer. More agonising. She continues to tolerate the pain. Untill one day she couldn’t take it anymore and wrote this note.
I still trust that this Facebook flirt isn’t him. I still trust him. Either way, technically he’s not mine anymore right? That doesn’t mean I don’t still care about him. I’ll always care about him. In my heart he’ll always be mine.
Quote:
“Life's getting just a little more hazy and my direction's gotten just a little more unclear... but no matter what, and no matter how hard things may seem to appear, I'll never let it get me down and take my smile away. I know I'll get through it all, cuz I'll always remain true to myself and to the people I care about ^_^Life's a bitch... but who cares!? So am I!Eat that bitch =P”
Happy New Year Everyone!
Bless Your Face!
<3
Baby May
xxx